Huh?!!!

What do you write about when you feel you have nothing to say?

I free write until something does come out, but most of the time it’s just blah, blah, blah… The other day Oklahoma suffered that devastating tornado and my immediate thought was to the parents and their children in school. Being a new Dad, the thought of not knowing the condition of my son within such a situation is mind boggling. I honestly cannot sit here and write of whether I would be disturbed but in control or going hysterical looking for my son. All of a sudden my writer’s block has become so miniscule and insignificant, but I also know what to write … my heart and sincere prayers go out to the families of all who are suffering through this natural disaster.

Having experienced the loss of my own child in the past, I can certainly relate to some parents at this moment.  Throughout that loss, my faith was challenged with such severity.  No religion, icon or words ever helped or gave me answers.  Only time, self reflection, plenty of free writing of the soul and on-going questioning is what kept me sane, accompanied by plenty of yelling and uncontrollable crying.  With way over a year of time and slow meditative breathing I came to realize the point of my loss and acceptance of it.  But in all honesty it is never fully healed, till this day the mention of my daughter, Sonia, is still experienced.  A sense of nostalgia and loss is inevitable, but a smile appears with the acknowledgement that I have an angel looking over me and my family.

How I went about my loss is not for everyone, so figure out your own path and do not be afraid to walk at your own pace.

Keep the faith strong, believe, breathe and come to your own terms.  God bless!!!

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Defying the odds / Fear of failure

What are the odds that by challenging yourself you do come out ahead and triumphant?
Challenge yourself right now with something that has been lingering in your life.  A pending project that has been shelved.  A recurring thought, concept, idea that has been long awaiting to be placed into action.  Regardless of those external or internal voices inside your head telling you about the risk and failure, instilling the fear day by day – FLIP IT!!!!  Simply go for it!  What’s the worst possible outcome?  What if the outcome doesn’t end up being exactly as you had imagined it? Does it ever?  So what!!!  You get it done and that is all that matters.  It takes great courage to get things done.  God only knows how long I have been procrastinating to create this blog and regardless of the outcome I am happy to get it done and out there.  This blog has been a pending project for over 2-3 years and the sensation of getting this blog in motion is life enhancing.  The fear factor most definitely plays a daily part in my life, whether I appear calm, cool and collective … inside my head a variety of scenarios are playing out and it is up to me to set it all straight as I arrange my true priorities in life.  These priorities are closely linked to my goals, family responsibilities, and a deep sense of spirituality.  When I mention spirituality I am not referring to any specific religion but more of a greater sense of existence with myself and life as it exists in the present time.  Focusing on my goals as an artist and cultural event producer is an on-going journey as is having become a husband and now a father.  The challenges and rewards are daily and ever so present even in the most minute detail.  So let us pay close attention to our daily lives at every minute and defy the odds, define our lives and live out our dreams.
  • What are your goals?
  • What do you fear the most? Why?
  • What are your genuine priorities?
Keep in mind that fear can be used either as fuel to dare you to do what you fear the most or it can be used to keep you away from it all.  Whatever the case keep in mind that fear does not ever go away, it stays around to keep us on our toes.  This challenge is done on a step by step process, but what are those specific steps? The approach all depends on you and your lifestyle.  I tend to reflect on what I have done and the results that it has led me to, along with my present life situation and I let those factors be a part of my mapping out a better sense of priorities and actions.  I read books based around self-help and and entrepreneurial themes as well as autobiographies of leaders.  Now when my time is limited then I choose to repeatedly listen to some audio books instead of reading.  Something about repetitive listening really does help as a learning tool, so many of my audio books have been played again and again good thing they aren’t vinyl records 🙂
Excellence and Failure relies on repeating the same action again and again.  Choose wisely which practice you want to repeat.  Have a good journey.